random attacks of agitation are horrible! it’s almost like your brain soaks in too much: like colours are too vivid, sounds are too loud and people move too fast for you to handle. and often when I try to think in this state my head doesn’t come up with words, it sort of just goes, “AGFBLS|HDHJFHFFFFGHFGHFDHHGFDGHFDGHDHJ” unceasingly.
and it’s very easy to give into that and spend the whole rest of the evening pacing the floor/spewing gibberish at anyone who happens to have ears/skipping from internet tab to internet tab looking at things for microseconds and not being able to understand any of it
so I am trying to find ways to be more constructive and slow things down and spewing gibberish at the internet is certainly a lovely alternative.